It's been 2 years since I first discovered blogging and I've created several accounts to publish my thoughts on different aspects of life and living. And all my life I've tried to put everything goin' on in mi head on words. What I couldn't and cannot say, I write down. It's really nothing special, it’s just me and the insanity which is my life full of the lunacy weaved by my wild imagination...
So today, I start this new account to collect everything I’ve written all over the cyberworld in a single site and see what or how I've progressed or if I have had a changed of heart or if I had taken a different perspective...suffice it to say a paradigm shift...after all as a woman, it's my prerogative to change my mind. Nyahaha! Seriously though, maybe because adopting a different point of view and changing one's standpoint is a sign of maturity.
Ah, there's an absolute concept: "change". The only thing that is constant in this world...unavoidable…inevitable...It would take a lot out of us to be able to adapt to these changes but then what else can you do to prevent it, or run away from it? Nothing. All our efforts are futile because what’s bound to happen will happen…there is nothing we can do. NOTHING.
So we'll just face it and accept it as it comes.
Blogging...from the mind and the hand of a frustrated writer...I guess will just have to see how far the limitless capability of the internet and the vastness of cyberspace will permit us. WRITING...this is something I've been doing for quite some time, something that I've always loved doing all my life...
Freeedom, language, the words, life itself - precious blessings.
What more can I possibly say? I've been blessed with a lot of things...
I’ve been BLESSED with…
...A family who always stood beside me despite the bad decisions I made...who always accepted, understood and forgave;
...Friends both old and new who always stood by me through the years and I know will stand by me still in the coming years; friends who are never too busy and too far away to listen, to cheer me up, to inspire, to make me laugh, to be my crying shoulder when everything gets too much to bear, to be my strength when I’m too weak, too tired, too broken; friends ready to share all that is good and bad in life;
...People whose lives I've touched and whose lives have made a difference in mine...those that came and went as well as those who came and stayed;
...Colleagues whom have been both critics, friends and mentors;
...Mentors whom you have learned from and have learned form you;
...Critics whom made you see your flaws and faults and made you be careful before you make any action;
...Strangers who made you realize that there is so much more to learn, to live for, to love...knowing that you can impart them both love and knowledge as you yourself can learn from them;
…People who have driven us, inspired us, gave us deadlines, demanded from us the satisfaction of what was expected, made us deliver; those who we interacted with everyday as well as those whom we only met once or never met at all that have made an impact in our lives…
...The gift of words - the rhymes and verses, the essays, the journals...Words which enabled me to reflect on my own life and share my story and experiences with others;
Indeed there are a lot of things in my life that I am THANKFUL for…
...The events that have molded me and transformed me to who I am today -
...the opportunities that came and went because I was too preoccupied with something else, for in a way it makes me who I am today;
...the time gone by, deeds done and the words said which caused pain and could never be taken back again – because they made me stronger, wiser, tougher;
...the insatiable quest for truth, no matter how hurting it can be – because certain realizations opened my eyes: it separated the idealist and optimist from the realist…because not everything is attainable and that there is something called ‘impossible’;
...the love I have freely given yet been taken for granted and yet despite of which I still have so much love to give and that there are so many out there in need of it;
...the trusting confidence I have shown which have been betrayed for it taught me not to lose my faith but to choose whom I trust and believe;
...the second chances I gave and the chances I’ve been given – because it made me forgiving and because it means I’ve been forgiven; through it I was able to redeem myself – to start over and live again;
...the risks I never hesitated to take – because it didn’t only made me brave, I had some worthwhile reward; in a way it made me a skeptical and contemplating daredevil;
...the optimism that never faded and the hope that never left me, without which I wouldn’t have come this far and I wouldn’t be here today;
...the determination to live through my darkest hour – because it didn’t only made me a survivor, it rewarded me with sunshine and rainbows;
...my spirirt that refused to be crushed - that remained steady…because of which I remained whole;
...the smile and laughter that haven't abandoned my soul – because it never failed to lighten the burden...it always made me feel closer to home…
There's a lot in my life that I am thankful for and so I guess this is a way of saying thanks...to open up to others...to share...who I am apart from being me.
